july 28-29 2022|
whoa, i updated late last night and didn't really realize exactly how ominous that sounded. for anyone wondering; i'm fine! there's just... some stuff's been happening. at work. that i don't really have answers for. and it's worrying me a little bit, i guess. working full time physical labor is pretty rough, and i haven't really been sleeping well, so maybe it's just me? i don't know. i realize this sounds, like, deranged, but i think the place i work might be haunted?|
whatever you're thinking, i've already heard it. my brother's been giving me shit all week. i just. i can't shake the feeling that something's wrong in that building, you know? i can't put my finger on WHAT it is, and it very well might not even BE ghosts or anything, but... yeah, i don't know. i want to tell someone, but like i said, my brother thinks i'm full of it and i don't trust any of my other irls or anyone at work not to laugh at me, and i really REALLY don't want to sink so low as to run off to r/paranormal or /x/. i guess i could use this page to talk about it? the whole "keep up a regular blog" thing has sort of fallen by the wayside since i got so busy, and i doubt anyone really checks up on this page at all anyway. remind me to take the link for it out of my twitter bio so nobody sees my crazy ghost ramblings that hasn't already, lol.|
okay, i guess i WILL do this. here goes.|
so, for some background before i get into the meat of things, i do packing and shipping for the distribution division of a printing company that's headquartered in detroit. the warehouse i work in specifically is located on the corner of hazelhurst and wanda in ferndale. to be frank the biggest L i take is the fact that verizon can't be fucked to give me any bars in the place. i'm sort of a bit too scrawny to lift heavy crates and legally i'm not supposed to be driving the forklifts -_- so my job consists mainly of inventory, paperwork, and breaking down cardboard boxes with an x-acto knife. i spend quite a bit of time skittering around with a scanner gun, making sure that everything's in the right place for everyone else to do whatever they need to do with it. if i'm being perfectly honest, i kind of hate it! but that's mostly because it involves standing and walking for eight hours a day rather than the actual job i have to do. (i fucking love breaking down cardboard boxes.)|
wait, hold on, i have to go. i'll finish this tomorrow, okay? i'm back. had another exhausting day at work in that freaky place, but at least it's friday and i'll be at home until monday. i think being out of there for at least a day or two will do me good. help me get my head back on straight, you know. maybe i'll even shut up about ghosts after this.|
anyway. it's not so much one big thing that's making me worried as it is, like, a bunch of stuff that's compounding. little things, that i could ignore if they were one-offs or if they were the only things that were weird but it's a LOT of things that just... keep happening.|
god, i can barely make myself type this. i'm so self-conscious that i sound like a fucking crazy person, even though no one is probably reading this anyway. it's just... the lights at the back of the warehouse are motion activated, and sometimes they turn on when everyone's at lunch. the blade of my box cutter extends itself, carts roll with no one pushing them. the printer will spit out packing slips for orders that don't exist. the place has no air conditioning, but the B row is cold in the middle of summer. yesterday i hit my head on a rack that was bolted into the ground, and the noise it made echoed for over thirty seconds--i counted.|
i don't know what any of it means. it could be nothing. it probably IS nothing. i'll keep this page updated.|
july 27 2022
something's not right in that place
july 22 2022|
sorry for the radio silence, but there'll still be no updates for a while :( a bunch of stuff is gonna be happening at once soon--i started a new job that's more or less full time (warehouse work; MUCH better than sales, but it kind of takes it out of you to do it for 7 hours a day), i'm getting my wisdom teeth out in a week or so (kind of scared but don't tell anyone. i don't like people's hands in my mouth at the best of times but the looming prospect of actual legitimate surgery is stressing me out a lot), and then basically immediately after that i'll be going on vacation to traverse city for a while and won't have my laptop, so. see you on the flip side!|
july 16 2022|
wowwwww EXTREMELY exciting day today! a long distance friend came to visit me all the way from new hampshire! (hi, theo, if you see this!) he flew in a few weeks ago to detroit metro and left for ann arbor, and then took the amtrak train from ann arbor back to detroit for a day to hang out with me :] we had a really good time walking up and down woodward, checking out the restaurants and parks. the weather was really nice (hot and sunny but not unbearable) and we got on great in person, which i was a little worried about; not that i thought we WOULDN'T get along, especially since we've been talking online in some capacity for over a year, but it's kind of nerve-wracking, you know? (not even touching on the fact that i DID kind of have to lie to my mom about allegedly meeting a "friend from high school". she's kind of weird about internet pals :/) but everything went AMAZING, and we both had an awesome time, a great addition to an already fun birthday vibe weekend!|
july 15 2022|
today was my birthday! i'm officially nineteen years old yayyy! i don't really feel any different; at least, not like i did when i turned eighteen. i think it's because nineteen isn't really as much of a milestone. i still can't drink or gamble, so i've still got a few years before i can really live my life to the fullest. or whatever. :P|
i took jenny in to the shop today, since my mom bought me a handlebar basket (!!) for the aforementioned birthday and i decided to let them give her a tune up while they were putting it on. should be done by monday, since i next work then.|
mom and i went to an art fair tonight as well! i got a bunch of cool stuff; some new jewelery (three rings, a necklace, an anklet, and two pairs of earrings) and a super cute bag that's embroidered with like. a new orleans theme, i guess? to replace my lame old camera bag with the broken strap. it's a bit smaller but MUCH sturdier and hopefully the limited space means i'll have less opportunities to clutter it up with crap i don't need -_- plus the bike basket should all but eliminate the constant need for a bag anyway, so that should work out well. we went to a cool restaurant after the fair, since it started raining and we had to leave a bit early. the fair was out in wyandotte, on the west bank of the rouge river, which is an area we don't visit much, so we had to ask around for tips on where to go and eat, but we found a good place called seafood h2o. the food was good, but i was expecting it to be fancier than it was, lol.|
for anyone actually reading this; thanks for sticking with me! it means a lot :)
july 13 2022|
whoa, long time no update! don't worry, i didn't forget, there just hasn't been a ton of stuff going on worth blogging about. i cleaned my room a bit, did more laundry, and i finished a couple of good drawings over the past few days, but really that's all. i'm almost done with my comic--just the colors and text for one page left!|
i'm starting a rewatch of seasons 1 and 2 of stranger things--i have to hurry, because my netflix subscription runs out on august 7th. i rewatched season 1 not that long ago, but i love it SO much that i want to watch it one more time the easy way before i have to go through all the effort of pirating, and season 2 is mostly a blur since i've only seen it once. i never finished season 3 (only got halfway through--i thought the plot with the Evil Commies was soooo weird and out of pocket, but the show DOES take place during the cold war, so i guess i can't be too surprised) and to be honest i don't want to touch season 4 for.... a LOT of reasons, so seasons 1 and 2 are my commitment. winona ryder i love you.....|
my day at work today kind of sucked. i didn't have to bike THAT far, but still a good mile and a quarter, and it was really ominously cloudy on the way there. i hoped it would hold up for a few more hours while i worked, since (as mentioned) basically my entire job is walking around outside handing out paper flyers, but... no dice. i could handle a drizzle, but it started pouring after about 45 minutes and i waited under a tree on a street corner for 15 or so before calling it quits. my boss let me go home early, but now i have to work on sunday (which i'd originally taken off) AND i had to bike home in the rain. i looked like a wet rat when i got home -_- here's a picture i took from under the tree that was covering me.|
july 9 2022|
i had a MUCH better day today. i had a free shift at work, which means that i don't have a specific time or address to account for. i can do my work at whatever time or place i want, as long as it gets done, so i got to sleep in a little today. i went out at 9:30 am instead of 8:00, since i DID want to get a head start in the morning before it got too hot out, but i got an extra hour and a half of sleep :] plus i stuck close to home, so i stopped for lunch at the store across from the high school after i was done. all in all pretty good!|
my mom and stepdad went to a dinner party and had to bring a dessert, so i helped my mom make a strawberry cake with rhubarb jam. it was VERY good, i had two big slices of it after they left since they only took half of it to the party. maybe i could share the recipe...|
also, i found my shoes! they were in a basket in the basement, for some reason. my mom and stepdad both say they didn't put them down there, but i know i didn't either, so...|
july 8 2022|
i had a pretty bad day; just, a lot of stuff was going wrong. i was ten minutes late for work, because i had to bike a long way again and i misjudged a bit how long it would take me to get there, and it was HOT and sunny outside even though my weather app said it would be a little cooler and overcast. i fell and skinned my knee on someone's doorstep--what IS it with me and doors--and i kept walking into spiderwebs on people's pathways where they were strung between bushes, AND i got sprayed by someone's sprinkler so i was all wet for a while. i rode my bike the long way home so i could swing by the shop and get a tune-up, but they told me i'd have to leave it there for almost a week and i couldn't do that because i had more work, so i went twenty minutes out of my way for nothing. a few more people bought model cars, which is cool, but they did it before i could raise the shipping prices on ebay, so not only did i have to pack six more boxes, i'm out over twenty dollars to make up the loss. UGH.|
on top of all of that, i had an incredibly unpleasant dream last night, which, if i'm being honest, pretty much set the shitty tone for the entire day. i dreamt i snuck back into my dad's house to get some of the stuff i left behind in my bedroom over there when i very abruptly stopped talking to him over six months ago. while i was getting my stuff, he got back and caught me. we got into an argument and i woke up after he hit me. he's actually never done that before--the worst he's done in real life is sort of grab my arm really hard, and in this dream he had fully slapped me across the face--but it FELT real the way dreams always kind of do, so it just... really sucked. i'm glad i can't remember all the details.|
july 7 2022|
ok, so from now on probably don't expect everyday updates; i actually don't know how many people are regularly reading this (probably not many) but i don't really feel like trying to scrape up a decent journal entry if nothing particularly interesting actually happened, so.|
anyway, i had a nice break from work this past week--sunday to thursday, pretty good! i got a lot of stuff done during my time off, ESPECIALLY today, which was SUPER busy. my mom and i went to the post office so that i could send a package (i shipped my first model car, and sold about five more today! fingers crossed that we get some more sold in the coming days; ebay automatically relists your stuff after a week, so now it's really just a waiting game for the rest), and then we went to costco with my grandma. we saw one of my dad's friends there, and THAT convo was super awkward, but otherwise everything went well. when i got home i had to clean the bathrooms (ew), and move all the yet-to-be-sold model cars out of the dining room (they're currently living all stacked up in my bedroom), and while i was moving them and putzing around in my bedroom i realized that basically all my clothes were dirty, so i did, like, four entire loads of laundry. now all my clothes are clean and my bedroom's a little less messy, which is nice.|
i also FINALLY got my pills refilled, so now i can draw again! not that i can't without them, but i have to bee in the right mood, which was.... kiiiind of hard to come by over the past two weeks, so. that's pretty cool :]|
july 5 2022|
i actually DID miss my update yesterday, but i didn't forget! i just thought i'd save it for today and make it a little bigger. yesterday was the fourth of july; we didn't do anything at my house, because my parents aren't particularly patriotic, but i stayed up late and listened to the fireworks they were setting off down in the city all night anyway. i finished painting those lawn ornaments, and my grandma and uncle came over for dinner yesterday and complimented me on how well i did with restoring them :] i'm very proud of my work! i'm still kind of covered in paint, though.|
i had my doctor's appointment today, FINALLY. i had to wait in the room for over half an hour before the doctor came in and talked to me for barely five minutes, which was kind of irritating, but whatever--i have my prescription refill now, and i don't have to go back for another three motnhs, woohoo! my mom and i went for lunch after, which was nice. i like hanging out with my mom.|
i updated my personal payroll last night, too; did you know i worked more hours in the past week than i did in the three combined before that?|
july 3 2022|
wow, i almost forgot to update today! i was really busy, even though i didn't have to work. i got up early to go run errands with my stepdad; we went to my aunt's house, to drop off a table saw for her to use, and then to home depot so my stepdad could buy mulch for the back garden and so i could get some cheap paintbrushes (since my ongoing project is definitely going to destroy them), and then we went to two different grocery stores because my mom needed some really specific stuff for something she was making. all of that and we didn't even really cook dinner! i ate chinese leftovers.|
the project i needed the paintbrushes for is going well, i got about two thirds of it all done today. we have a bunch of lawn decorations that are mostly made of metal (flowers and silly frogs and such) and we've had them for so long that the paint is REALLY faded on them, so i've been contracted by my mom to repaint them. i'm actually having a pretty good go of it, even though i HATE spray painting stuff, since a good chuck of it was able to be done by brush with regular paint. i'm letting them dry overnight before i go back in and do details, like the eyes of the frogs and seed bits of the sunflowers and stuff like that. my parents say they look really good so far :] maybe i'll upload some photos when i'm done!|
july 2 2022|
today was a slow day. madison avenue was crawling with cops, for some reason; i didn't manage to snag any photos because when i asked what was going on, they told me to leave and wouldn't let me take any pictures. some guy was on his lawn and kept motioning towards his door; i couldn't hear what he was saying. that was my first route for work, so i had to take a big detour, which was really annoying. they were all gone when i got back two hours later.|
speaking of work, i got an email back from an insurance company today that wants me to be a remote receptionist. i think i'll probably at least try it, since it pays $35 an hour (!!), but i'm worried about having to make phone calls >_< i wish i could just do data entry and not have to talk to anyone, but i'll take what i can get. currently hyping myself up for this microsoft teams meeting (god, i hate video chatting...). wish me luck!|
july 1 2022|
i'm working on a comic, for the first time in a long time. i've never been particularly good at them, i have a hard time mapping them out? but this one is going very well. it's based on my very favorite SCP article, which is SCP-5802.... mmmm, i love a good scary movie ... the best SCP articles are the ones that read like slashers :] it's the longest comic i've ever done, six whole pages! i'm done with four of them, and i'm in the middle of the fifth. it's been slow going recently, though (i started almost three weeks ago, now), since i'm unfortunately completely out of medication :[ well, okay, not COMPLETELY out, i have one pill left that i'm saving for if i really need to focus on something. but it was a whole debacle trying to get a doctor's appointment scheduled so i could get my prescription refill, and i think the lady on the phone definitely thought i was scheduling an appointment for my son that i don't have (because of course as we all know the only people that take adderall are young boys -_-), but i finally got it done; next tuesday, the fifth! so hopefully then i'll be back on track; i'd like to have the comic done before the fifteenth, as a little birthday present to myself.|
i'm stuck on route five in my playthrough of pokemon black 2. it's a romhack, blaze black 2 redux, and they've added a battle right before the entrance to driftveil city that i've been having trouble with. i think i might set the game aside for a week or two and come at it fresh; that's what worked for me with both elesa's gym battle and that one double battle with ingo and emmet, so hopefully it'll work again with charles the motorcyclist and his DUMB triple battle. my team right now is metang, samurott, scolipede and reuniclus, but i might swap reuniclus out for a chandelure or a vanilluxe since metang (soon to be metagross!) is already part psychic type. i don't really tend to build my team specifically around type matchups, but since this is a romhack that's meant to be challenging, i might want to invest in more strategy for when it comes time to beat the pokemon league. good thing i never do nuzlockes.|
work was okay. my boss gave me a new address that was only two miles away instead of eight, so my commute wasn't as much of a bother, and i took a different way home than i usually would so i got to go exploring. i went past the catholic school, our lady star of the sea, and along lake st. clair from the other end. it was pretty sunny, but after i got home and mowed the lawn it started looking like it was going to rain. it hasn't yet, though; i hope it does, since our plants need it. nevermind, it's sprinkling now! we're growing tomatoes right now, and we keep marigolds in the pots with them so that the rabbits and squirrels don't eat the fruit (they don't like the smell or taste), but it's been so dry recently that the marigolds aren't doing so well. my mom's worried that they'll start eating the tomatoes again. i told her that i could chase them off. i already have to go out and pull the snails off the leaves, so.|
i rewatched casino royale tonight; the remake, not the original. does someone else mind watching this movie so i can confirm that i didn't hallucinate the five minute long cock and ball torture scene between daniel craig and mads mikkelsen?|
also, i saw another weird door today. i decided not to knock on it; i couldn't figure out which way it swung in, and something made me kind of not want to find out.|
june 30 2022|
i started looking for a new job today. i currently work in door-to-door advertising; basically i just put hangers on people's doors to market for a painting company. it's not that glamorous, especially because i don't have a car. my boss, jacob, had me scheduled to ride my bike almost eight miles one way for my two-hour shift tomorrow. i make fourteen dollars an hour, that's so not worth it; i called in and asked for an address change, and he moved me somewhere that's only two miles away. it's not that i'm adverse to riding my bike, or anything, really i kind of like doing that, but an eight mile bike ride would have taken me over an hour that i wouldn't have been getting paid for either time, so i just sucked it up. at least my boss is a decent guy and was understanding about it; he's only a middle manager, which means that he also has a boss to answer to. i guess he understands my plight at least a little bit. i wonder if i could sort of psychically condition him NOT to be the worst scheduler of all time...|
i didn't work today, though, but i did help my grandmother a bit with some cleaning. my granddad died recently, and we're trying to sell some of his old collections of stuff because my grandma really needs the money. i've been listing a bunch of his die cast model cars on ebay--he has over two hundred, easily, and i was definitely employing some illegal maneuvers trying to get them off of the shelving units in the garage. they were all dusty, too, and some of them that were farther in the back were a bit... infested. the models are really intricate, with incredibly detailed molded plastic insides and undercarriages, but it means a LOT of nooks and crannies for bugs to crawl in. it was like a little spider car show back there. it's okay, though; some of these are pretty rare, and they'll be worth a decent amount once i get some good pictures of them and can list them online. i'll have to get them clean before shipping them, but it shouldn't be too hard.|
it's been really hot out recently. i think it was almost 90 degrees today. my job involves a LOT of walking around outside, so i'm pretty lucky that my boss keeps scheduling me to work early in the morning when it's still nice out, even though i still usually have to wear a tank top and shorts. it doesn't bother me so much that all my clothes are black, but i wish my hair was a little thinner; maybe then it wouldn't frizz out so much when i'm outside in the heat. i do have to look a BIT presentable, i AM in sales, you know.|
i saw this weird door in the middle of someone's lawn on tuesday while i was working. i wonder what it's for.|
